through the door

WE are all frozen light. Better still, our bodies are frozen light and we've hooked our spirits into the earth plane . Five months in utero I decided that I had better hook strong into the earth dimension and so I did. I got used to the confinement of my mothers' womb by sleeping until birthday...it was a frightening experience. When they brought me back to compress against that familiar warmth and heart beat I settled down. Everything was so bright for my eyes. I seemed shocked into forgetfulness to my life prior to this. Oh I remembered some but everyday something left to be filled in by a new experience. Faces faded from me....words...I couldn't even find the words to say to express my needs....so pure emotive noises would have to suffice until I learned these words again. I felt a homesickness that I couldn't explain...and that homesickness still bumps up against me to this very day.

Ollie

Ollie the Budgie is focused on something and this something according to him, deserves much chatter and pecks. I'm not sure why he seems to focus on something....something shiny or something just sticking out but it seems he has to have a chirp and peck focus. Every morning he starts up a chirp storm whilst the other birds, a girl budgie and a boy lovebird, do the rare chirp just to keep in practise. I suppose Ollie is the singer of the bunch, maybe he's doing his version of saying morning prayers from a tower in the Middle East? seems he must start each day this way. I appreciate his words of happy wisdom. Greet each morning with joy, embrace the new light and all the promise of the new day! Now he is sitting on the top of my door...rather a precarious place but I do feel for any breezes (none) and no one else around to slam the door so he is safe...and he is again chirping his little birdie head off. I suppose he feels that he must spread this around and make sure that others hear him so he moves his position every now and again. I love Ollie. Good morning.

Can it be done?

I want to look at you and see a human being first. I don't want to look at you in lust. Why should this be so hard. Why does de-sexualizing make one more human to me? oh wrong choice of words. I want to drink in your beauty, I want to talk to you without any ulterior motive of flirt or maybe or should I? or what have you. I want to embrace your man self, your boy self as friend, no sex, no disregard for that healthy and creative power but to see you without that baggage. What if we should meet without our genitals? Let's put them in a pile over by the door and just sit for awhile and talk. Let's look and cuddle and play in a freedom uncluttered by eros. Is this even doable? is it possible to appreciate a beautiful sexy man without hormones taking over? I want this. I want to get to know the other half of the population and not let sex ruin it.

street fairies

I watched you sing to yourself as I waited for my ride. Earphones on....rings and things on your face you sang out loud and clear. I watched one woman wait for her ride and look at me questioningly after she looked at you briefly. We were are on Johnson...a street famed for its uniqueness, its people,its style or lack thereof and one should expect this. I took out my camera, I so wanted to snap you but didn't want to break you out of your arias...so I took rooftops and building facades and busied myself...still listening to you warble. I went home thinking about nuttiness and my town and how I envied your freedom to sing out like no one could hear. I hope you never stop feeling this freedom.
Take care.

Early fae siting

I spotted a nature being, moving around my rowan tree in the front yard. It is an overcast day and as I usually see them on bright days this is something. Gently moving around rowan as if she's smoothing the limbs upward...moving the energy? She blends with the tree energy and then separates...as I concentrate she grows more delineated. She knows I am watching but knows my heart so she continues doing her work. She slowly moves up the tree and then I can't see her anymore so I wonder if I moved out of that state of consciousness or she sped up her vibration and left? Interesting.

Today I am in expectation of something..I have that feeling that something good is going to happen but can't pin down what just yet. I'm feeling my pockets fill with money! ooooh yeah! have a great day all. Ravy

Today

Today it is raining. Well better put, this morning it is raining. I will not complain as I have no snow unlike those on the east coast. It's grey and that's okay. My birds, two budgies and a lovebird , are watching me hoping that I do something "God-like" or sing. They love when I sing because they all join in. I am drowned out by birdy voices.
I'm trying to find new stimulus for art for my shirts and/or other things. I really should toodle around town again soon and find more stores that will take my cards.
I am bugged that this cold has me loafing around and not exercising much. I want to exercise!!! okay screw the last vestiges of this cold, I'm at least going to do a little pilates today. I want to have a superstrong core. I want to be able to stop cannon balls with my abdominals. No really. Anyone being "avasted" by ye pirates will just have to pull me infront of them and yo heave ho! Okay maybe not that strong but you get my drift. Well not much else to say at the moment...right now Ollie the Budge is giving little kissy-pecks to Tori the lovebird on his beak and all is harmonious in the Moondancer home. I wish all a sunny happy morning and rest of the day. hugs and pay THAT forward.

Living my life for men

If I were to live my life for men...

I'd be thinner, fatter, less stomach,more stomach, breasts that stood up straight when I laid down, less breasts, more breasts. I'd shave my pubes, leave my pubes alone, shave my underarms, leave my underarms all furry, I'd wear deodorant,I'd leave deodorant to sit unused in my bathroom cabinet, I'd straighten my hair, leave it natural, I'd wear no makeup,less makeup or more makeup, I'd have kids, I'd be childfree, I'd be a go-getter with a great job, I'd be a go-getter with a job that made me fascinating but did not overshadow a guys job, I'd be a stay at home wife, I'd not have pets,I'd have pets, I'd wear foot and leg killing heels, I'd wear short skirts, low cut tops, Not too low cut tops, strangle my neck with a collar tops, I'd wear perfume, I'd stop wearing perfume, I'd be a great cook and housekeeper, I'd not be too domestic, I'd not be too funny, I'd not be too raunchy, I'd be one of the guys, I'd be a real lady, I'd be stupider, I'd be smarter, I'd be interested in football, I'd eat more meat, I'd eat less meat, I'd be more bisexual , I'd be a very open minded threesome minded gal!!!, I'd not be a slut, I'd not be a prude.

I love my girlfriends and the guy that loves me for who I am.