thoughts on dreams, out of body flying etc.

Thoughts.
I fly. Now whether in dreams or in out of body experiences (which I really think they are)..they are incredibly real experiences. I feel all movement..I feel it on what seems to be skin..in my hair...I see in vivid colours and clarity.
Sometimes I fly into different realms or dimensions. I've done this since a child. One particular "real" dream I was flying over a beach and saw "myself" as a child walking with my older sister. I swooped down infront of myself (my spirit?..seemed to be older) and I hugged my young self saying "it will all be alright". This has stayed with me my whole life.
I've also had a shamanistic death and rebirth experience in the dream state or whatever you would call it. Before I even had heard of dismembering the body and then reforming it. The woman that took me through the process had long black hair...some sort of drapey covering over her body and was long limbed. I believe it was Saraya...my spirit guide..or one of my spirit guides.
I've also swam in the golden and blue waters in a heavenly place. All there were persons that had passed over and we were joyfully swimming. Everything felt real.
I've also dipped myself into various coloured pools..glowing with brilliant colours of gold, cerise,blue,orange....they only thing I could come away with is that it was if I was dipping into someone's chakras...the earths? a place? everything around me was dark.The colours of the pools glowed in the darkness.
There is a difference to these "dreams" in that they are an upping of reality that goes beyond so called "regular" dreams. There is an intensity to them to screams to be noticed.

ego revisited.

How odd..to be concerned with someone else's ego to the point where your own ego gets invested. Oh this bugger! this Satan! Love him for helping me to question but oh he does love to conquer the Christ self. Yes to me the Satan (Ha-Satan or the adversary) is the part of you that is ego. Ego asks you to fear, to mistrust, that the other faces of God are not really God but outside of God and therefore to be mistrusted!! There is no such thing. All is God. God is all. Ego is like one person out of tune with a shared sing-a-long that tries to be so loud that he changes the rest of us to his tune. Ego wants to be noticed for he is dying faster in this world today as we all reach inwards for the Christ-self. The Trickster path is about the questioner...the fool who refused to march along with somnambulists..the person who shakes you up...goes inbetween...knocks you off your center so that you can learn at an excelarated rate. Trickster,Satan,Sacred Fool, Heyoka, Sacred Clown, Wild man of the Woods, Crazy cat lady....The Trickster path is all about finding the truth, making sure, laughing at constructs that are build by our minds and taken as "objective reality"...mirroring others to teach, acting like an ass to teach. The Trickster path is in league with ego..sees it as useful to a degree but only due to our fall into it. The Trickster path would not have created itself had we embraced diversity, oneness and had the "perfect love that casts out all fear." Trickster path persons can get a heap of negativity thrown at them by those that don't understand..usually seeing themselves in that mirror that is worn by the fool. Since many can't see everyone and everything as a teacher and as sacred they distrust. The distrust themselves. They think that everyone has the same duplicitous nature as they do. It is not an easy path. You get laughed at, called a boor, a fool, a show off, you get distrusted, you sometimes get appreciated but you do find out who are true friends that's for sure. You also learn that you have much to learn yourself....that you have to work on ego constantly. You can get pretty smug with all that "oh aren't I clever?" folderal but then you fuck up and people help you come back down to truth..that you are no better, no worse but the same. I was born on this path ...and I have had to accept it. No...I am not nailing myself to a cross here. I just have to learn how to accept this way....work through it..talk outloud to help myself and maybe someone else out there going through shaman sickness or trying to find their way. Sometimes my words can get all twisted up...sometimes there is not a human word for the things I feel or the Gnosis that we all have so forgive me. Maybe I should just sing. :) wearing a bright yellow duck suit and standing outside the Law offices ofcourse.

On being a Shaman

It is not an easy task to be a shaman. One has to be very strong mentally and emotionally and then physically. A true Shaman can keep a foot in each world almost equally and by that I mean he/she can function well in two or more dimensions. Many people who fancy being shamen are not always grounded enough to be practical. Many may be going through their shaman sickness to become a shaman at a future date but not a shaman just yet. One cannot just call themselves shaman and have it be so. You can be practising at being a shaman or walker/traveller what have you...but it is up to others whether you truly are or not. If you have come to a place where you are okay ...don't have to be rich or what have you (I've seen and heard of plenty of materially poor shamen)but okayand with a firm grip on this dimension as well as the ability to travel the web by merging their attention to it then they may be a shaman.Then again we have those on a trickster path who may look off their rocker butare very firmly connected to their earth root. We can't assume just by looking at someone...they too may be going through their "sickness" which is a kind of death and rebirth process that can take anywhere from a day to decades.I was just thinking about the strength it takes to follow this path and thought I'd yak again. Blessings Ravy