ego revisited.

How odd..to be concerned with someone else's ego to the point where your own ego gets invested. Oh this bugger! this Satan! Love him for helping me to question but oh he does love to conquer the Christ self. Yes to me the Satan (Ha-Satan or the adversary) is the part of you that is ego. Ego asks you to fear, to mistrust, that the other faces of God are not really God but outside of God and therefore to be mistrusted!! There is no such thing. All is God. God is all. Ego is like one person out of tune with a shared sing-a-long that tries to be so loud that he changes the rest of us to his tune. Ego wants to be noticed for he is dying faster in this world today as we all reach inwards for the Christ-self. The Trickster path is about the questioner...the fool who refused to march along with somnambulists..the person who shakes you up...goes inbetween...knocks you off your center so that you can learn at an excelarated rate. Trickster,Satan,Sacred Fool, Heyoka, Sacred Clown, Wild man of the Woods, Crazy cat lady....The Trickster path is all about finding the truth, making sure, laughing at constructs that are build by our minds and taken as "objective reality"...mirroring others to teach, acting like an ass to teach. The Trickster path is in league with ego..sees it as useful to a degree but only due to our fall into it. The Trickster path would not have created itself had we embraced diversity, oneness and had the "perfect love that casts out all fear." Trickster path persons can get a heap of negativity thrown at them by those that don't understand..usually seeing themselves in that mirror that is worn by the fool. Since many can't see everyone and everything as a teacher and as sacred they distrust. The distrust themselves. They think that everyone has the same duplicitous nature as they do. It is not an easy path. You get laughed at, called a boor, a fool, a show off, you get distrusted, you sometimes get appreciated but you do find out who are true friends that's for sure. You also learn that you have much to learn yourself....that you have to work on ego constantly. You can get pretty smug with all that "oh aren't I clever?" folderal but then you fuck up and people help you come back down to truth..that you are no better, no worse but the same. I was born on this path ...and I have had to accept it. No...I am not nailing myself to a cross here. I just have to learn how to accept this way....work through it..talk outloud to help myself and maybe someone else out there going through shaman sickness or trying to find their way. Sometimes my words can get all twisted up...sometimes there is not a human word for the things I feel or the Gnosis that we all have so forgive me. Maybe I should just sing. :) wearing a bright yellow duck suit and standing outside the Law offices ofcourse.

funny thing about egos

The other day I was shopping and as I went through the checkout, the cashier asked if I wanted to donate a dollar to a charity. I said yes and she gave me a little thing to put my name on so I could show everyone that I gave (it would be put up on the wall with others). Thinking of how showing others my good work is just another ego thing, I wrote "just a girl" on the name section. I then hoped that the cashier would see that so she could see what a humble person I am. LOL. It's a constant learning it is.

You make your own life

My life can be whatever I want it to be. I can imagine it into existance...manifestation is our birthright by spirit. We always have this with us but have so so long ago ceased to believe in our co-creative powers. We do not have to connect into that paradigm that says "world is harsh, money is not there, people are cruel" . I'm working on believing in my own power. Some days are better than others. If I decide to not give into the mindset of "watch all the news" "don't get caught off guard" "don't hide your head like the proverbial ostrich"....why does this concept threaten some? If to be in the know of all the terrible things happenning in the world....do I add to it by believing that it is real? Can I not manifest my own reality? sure we are not an island..that goes without saying. One must be strong enough to withstand the mindsets of others and to focus on the prize. Everything that happens is for a reason...everything is a lesson and how we each individually and as a whole react to each lesson is what matters. Think of Jesus. Here is an exceptional being that was so sure of his higher self that it was stronger than many around him. He would manifest enough loaves and fishes when many thought he could not..he could walk on water when others feared for his life. This is a lesson folks! this is what we can do if we have faith as real and sure as even a small mustard seed. You know the seed is there..you know you can do things to the seed...and what may happen...that is what it is all about...KNOWING...getting past the hoping or thinking and into gnosis. Asking yourself if it is ego or knowing by the method of elimination until you cannot be anymore honest with yourself. Understood...ego aka the adversary does want to live...to thrive...we have made it king. We have manifested this falsehood ourselves and now we have made it into all the layers that surround us like an onion. Stop it. be honest...be loving and let those layers peel away until you reach the center which is nothing and everything at once. The centre.....the kingdom of heaven is within you...so says that famous scripture. I am learning. I am not THERE yet...I have much to go but I am happy that I believe I am on the right track. Create your own life. Don't fall into the structures that everyone else builds for you.....take control of your own life. Be free.

Fertile!

One flower stands overpollinated in a field ; what wondrous things will she create today? Bring beauty ...be it in action....art or emotion....bring beauty today to those that will behold. When beauty is beheld..it produces beauty which produces beauty which produces beauty...Every fertile thought produces thought, every action, reaction and action. Energy is never still but goes onward in circles and ripples. We can make mountains move if we have as sure and real belief as a small mustard seed....the size never matters but that our belief be sure as sure as what we could hold in our hands and eyes..that kind of sureness. Humanity has no idea how powerful we are..that we are indeed made in Gods image..be your God the likeness of Jesus or Buddha or Jehovah or Kwan Yin...we are the microcosm of that macrocosm. Be fruitful and multiply your creations!!! creation is love and love is creation!!! We have too long believed in the lie of separation, the lie of powerless, the lie of God being "over there" and not within and around. Who is this ego we call Satan, we call doubt, we call aloneness? Why do we support that life?
Know how wondrous we are. Know how we are never without God.