Sorting through

going through all my pics from the trip I can only surmise that it's best not to take many from a moving vehicle. Not only do I have reflection after reflection on my pics...but when the wind screen is covered in prairie insects it is an exercise in futility trying not to show bugs. Eventually you end up thinking of the insects as part of the "road trip charm"....at least you try and convince yourself of that.
Some great photos are resting admidst some very bad photos. I have many gigabytes of pic and film and trying to do what I can...from blow-ups..considering the pixels...to what art I can make with the not so good ones..to what film I can make if I string together bits of video here and there. A woman can only sit on her butt for so long. I am not fond of sitting still for long periods of time and my right knee is barking too. I guess I am going to have to pace myself...a little work, a little exercise...a little work etc. What pics can be turned into cards for money? oh so many things to think about. Vacations are not just about the trip anymore ..for me at least.

Goodbye May

Goodbye dear May....I'll miss you. I've enjoyed your new blossoms, that indecisiveness in regards to weather, and your increasing sunlight. You're going out and your sister June is coming in....she's a bit warmer, a bit more experienced and somewhat more showy but I'll always love you best. See you next year.

Live streaming eagle cam.

Eagle cam on my blog now. This eagle nest is in Sidney...just an hours drive or less north of Victoria BC. The eagle pair have three babies..all in gray down still as of April 24th. Very nice to be able to see this. Life is good.

Cherry tree spirits

So I went walking past the cherry tree and stopped because I felt something grab my attention. I looked at cherry to see small beings clamouring about and then watched as one around a foot tall strode up to me questioningly. It had the look of a small boy almost...but asked me without using a mouth if I could see him. Yes I can see you I said...I'm just watching and nice to meet you. I don't want to interfere with your work..so nice meeting you I said..and I walked on. I looked back to see him still watching me before he turned back and melted into the tree..first as a shapeless light and then vanishing. The cherry was just in pre-blossom state and had a rosiness to it's tips and was positively purring (?). Purring trees...LOL fancy that. I had to stomp my feet, hard, to ground myself more and carry on with my walk-jog. It was one of those very trancey days for me. I guess the earbuds with Prokofiev blaring in my ears didn't help my mindfulness. *grin* Must do more walks without accompaning mp3 player to hear the wind and trees talk more.

Wanting to go with them

I remember a few autumns ago how I longed to fly off with the geese making their way south. It was not so much the want to be a bird, but the desire to be such a part of nature that I was moved by her gentle urgings ...no second thoughts ...acting on instinct only. I felt apart from that oneness and it took me awhile to see that I do indeed have instinctual reactions to mothers urgings in my menses, in my body's reaction to sunlight,warmth,cold etc. I don't know why I looked outside myself for this. I went from being to observing which made "two" and here I am trying to keep my eye single. I remember wanting so much to explain this feeling to a friend, my desire to wing with the geese, I was open and raw and he understood...he understood. I really want to not need external validations of my sanity, my goodness, my value. We are all mirrors upon mirrors upoin mirrors for one another and my want is not to want but to just "be" and know that all are one and that we are God trying to understand ourself. Did God create the mirror upon which she first observed? saw herself as two? I wonder.