coffee house

wait for it...wait for it.....Yes! it's the martyrs whine for today folks! Tonight is my monthly pagan coffee house that my group holds. Since I am the one that began all of this on our group I do feel a sense of "should" to be there...despite the fact that many times no one shows up or just one. Let me get this off my chest now. This is not easy for me. It may look easy..but if you really truly know me, this is not easy. I go because I don't want any newbies to wonder why I put out a notice of an event then don't show up myself. I wonder if some folks think, oh Ravy will be there so I don't need to show up...I wonder... Anyways it something I do and I often hope that I meet someone new or at least one of my closest friends shows up so it's not a total washout. I love to curl up in a warm cozy chair with a hot mug of steaming coffee...little whispy trails of steam curling about my nose..ah bliss...but it's best when you can talk to at least one other person. I look around at those with the laptops..those in small couples ..heads together whispering and shooting furtive glances about. Maybe I'll bring a book. Books are always safe havens to hide in when you are left to just the voices in your head entertaining you. Sigh. Okay I admit it, I'm moaning and coming off as a poor baby but hey if you can't rant on a blog where CAN you rant?